Respected Hakeem sahib Asslam O Alikum, almost three years ago I committed a wrong or sin. and what I did not to repeat that after ablution I sat on praying mat and placed my hand on Holy Quran and said: " O Allah by Holy Quran I promise to You that I will not commit this sin again and if I did it again then destroy me and humiliate me in this world and hereafter and keep me away from paradise" but after some days I committed the same sin again and i have done it many times and now I am worried that what should i do now? Where to go? Everything is going upside down now, life has become limited. Educational side is also declined from last three years and health is also declining day by day. The reason is unclear. Now my mind is too weak to remember what I just say a second ago. I do not want to see books and I start crying without reason, there is anger always in me. I have lost patience. And if any one says something that sticks to me and keep me burning inwardly. I want to stay alone and sometimes I want to snatch my hair and want to die after hitting my head to wall again and again. The examination of BSC is near and I cannot understand that how all this will be. If I tell you the health condition then I am like skeleton now. I am so weak and there is no strength in body. I am bald and eyes are gone deep inside and cheeks are shrunken. I feel that if i fell somewhere then I will not be able to get up again. The reason is that hidden diseases left me with no way. I spent money like water but in vain. Another severe problem has started that the habits of female are developing in me. My walking style, talking style and even my voice has become like female voice and it the same until now. My body is thin like females and the face features are half male and half female. Despite I was normal before. I was born normal, inwardly I am normal naturally but outwardly these changing are started. Now I cannot go out of home every person laughs and makes fun of me. Some say ”zanani”, some say me hechra and some say "khusra" many times I thought to commit suicide I tried it but could not do. Furthermore from the day when i broke the promise after swearing by Holy Quran, everything is going wrong. And the life is going from bad to worse. Mind is affected in such a way that I start talking to myself, I start to cry and laugh while sitting without any reason. (Hidden)

Ingratitude is being made the emblem of punishment

Dear readers Asslam o Alikum! This is a true incident that an old man was living with his wife children in a village. His son who was, in 5th class, he requested his father to give him a bicycle when he will pass the exam of 5th class. The old man promised him to do so. Time passes and one day he passed the exam of Fifth class, and he said Baba i have passed the exam now bring a new cycle for him. Old man went to Multan to fulfill the desire of him, and while returning back, in the way he met a very clever young man and he asked the old man to let him sit on the cycle. The old man was so pious and kind hearted that he agreed, then young man said him permit him to drive the cycle and sit behind. He did so and sat behind. When the village of pious aged man arrived he said him that my village is here give me my cycle now. Then he refused to give and denied that it is the cycle of that aged man. he said shame on you old man, i kindly let you sit on my cycle and bring you until here, and now you are occupying on my cycle. When the young man made noise many persons gathered there, young man said such oily things that everybody was on his side, and they started to say ill things to old man. Finally the Meeting of villagers is called, and they all listened the old man and the young man. Young man did not let the old man speak there also.people decided that young man who is claiming to be the owner of cycle, should swear on Holy Quran and he agreed at once happily. There was a Mosque near that place, after making ablution he went into the mosque and brought the Holy Quran out and in front of all people he said after swearing that this cycle is mine. People gave the cycle to him and he proudly looked at old man and went to the road while smiling. Tears were rolling down from the eyes of old man and he was looking at sky in helpless way. Everyone was abusing that old man. Meanwhile that young man just stepped I

On the road and a fast speeded truck came from behind and it hit the young man, the cycle went on one side and the man was thrown on the other road. And the bus coming from the other side pressed the body of that man in such a way that the body got stuck to the road, and it was unidentifiable. The truck driver did not stop but the bus driver stopped the bus. Police arrived and the bus driver said that i was coming right from my side he was hit by the unknown truck and he came flying way under my bus. And the people also approved the bus driver, and then police let the diver go after little common procedure. Now the old man told the whole incident to police. Police took the old man with his cycle to the shop from where he purchased the cycle. Shopkeeper said that this aged man purchased this cycle some hours ago from this shop. Police gave the cycle to old man. Readers!! Today we swear on Holy Quran every now and then, instead of reciting it. The Holy Quran is really, really not for swearing. But is Holy Quran is for reciting and following. So we should be careful about swearing especially by Holy Quran.              (Muhammad Bilal Sultan, Multan)